not a beautiful mess.

This is a rough week for me. Ayah's birthday is coming, July 5th and it's almost two years since he left us, he left me.

I had a cat fight with my small brother. He said that ayah pampered me so much until i became soooo mengada. To be honest, I love being mengada. I always think that my father only loves me. me. me. me. me. always me =) because he always talk to me. he always answer when i call. he always layan me. he will come if i call him. i always cry and he will always asked me to hold on. Oh God, I'm such a mess without him. I'm such a mess.

I am having an emotion breakdown. It's hard.

Hashrul Ezwan, i'm sorry i scream at you. i shouldn't. I'm in total mess.

I'm sorry.