until i'm finish

I want to cut my hair short. then just color it all red.. Actually, i did cut my hair super short last time. same problem, broken heart. and i think it's lame to do something, exactly the same twice. heih.

i was watching Grey's Anatomy and i came across this, "You can change your hair color, but it is you that have to change first". It's true.. but somehow, i feel disgusted with myself. i feel that i am stupid to make the same mistake again and again. this is the main reason why i don't want to look the same, the main reason why i want to just cut my hair short.

but my bestfriend kinda stop me to commit with the idea. heihh.. i'm still crying everyday and everytime. seriously. i was on my treadmill, running nonstop then burst into tears, sumpah pelik weyy.. then i cry everytime i'm alone; while driving, taking bath, eating.. macam mati laki pun ada gak.

I'm not sure when will i stop crying.. and i'm not sure when will i stop talking and typing about this.. i had been put in a space that's too small and i hide the damage so deep, i just lost my self through it.. now, i just want to show how i'm feeling until all the feeling has gone. I'm just gonna say it all.. until i'm finish.

so bare with me. please.

short hair. (was)