Friday, January 21, 2011

..is hard

How could i have allowed myself to be in a relationship when i have so many other things i have to do with my life?

All these conflicting thoughts are driving me crazzyyyyy. I am mad at you. I am mad at you for making me miss you, I am mad at you for making me care. Part of me wants to just soak in the moment of missing someone, the moment you are so sure you love someone, and the other part of me wants to prepare for the worst.

I want to ignore you, pretend that you are not there, I want to make you feel that I'm fine without you- all because I'm scared. I am so scared to do this again. I am scared to be left devastated. I am scared to love you. tolong la tembak diri aku ni haa..

Love is hard, but if it's easy.. It wouldn't mean nothing. urmm.. I think to much.

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