Today is december 05,2008. Exactly this hour, I say goodbye to ayah and get some sleep. Its my ibu’s turn now to take care of him. Ayah had a heart failure at 2.30 am. He past away. With 4g morphine thru his vain, doctors tried their very best to get him back.. but God has other plan for him. And ayah’s plan doesn’t include us; his family. That night, im soulless. Try to get some sleep, but i can still fell ayah's warm hand. The sunny weather seems so dark and cloudy. Ayah is not coming back.
It’s been 125 days now. Sometimes, I still pretend that ayah is on his work trip to.. I don’t know where, somewhere. Ayah travel a lot. I miss fetching him at KLIA or LCTT. I miss eating with him at McDonald and Selva. I still see him everywhere I go.
Well, my family and I had gone thru our first puasa and raya without ayah. Ibu celebrate her first birthday without ayah. Noah finished his high school without ayah. It’s not big, but at least we are trying.
I miss ayah. I want new stupid political jokes from him. He’s the best.
love yourself, your family. love jason mraz,
nadia alias~
2 comments:
nad, i feel sory to hear dat..
be strong gurl..
:')..
waa suddenly aku pun jd sedih..
teringat kat bapak aku gak..
da 1thn lbh..
ish sedih la plak kn..
janganla sedey.. uhuhuhu... let's be strong for our future.
"fall 7times, stand up eight" =)
love yourself even more, love your family even more.
thanx beb =)
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