for yourself

i know this sound stupid, tapi.. apa hal semua orang kawen kawen ni?? dont give me wrong. i love wedding.. seriously, its very sweet, celebrating love and stuff. i love to see happy couple berkahwin, it just that... it seems like everything berlaku serentak!.. bamm, that girl kawen, then bamm, dia plak, and bamm, another fren plak. aduhai.. banyak btol~ tak kesah banyak banyak. tapi.. cepatnya kalian dapat mr.right korang.. aku pening plak. banyak lagi sebenarnya lelaki yang okay kat luar sana. huhu.. ntahla~ ada ke mr.right lagi yang tinggal tok aku? semua lelaki baik, hebat da kawen (kecuali jason mraz).. hehe. kelakar plak aku rasa post ni. pening je~

i always think that i have this buble around me, or kotak that protect me from socialize with people, especially boys. its not like i hate them or what, it just that sometimes, boys/men can be very pening. so i tend to not involve in pening people. sometimes, the boy/men are okay.. he's sweet, polite then suddenly, poyo plak.. aduhai, tak dapatlah. u know, its not a bout the big thing, its about the small thing. the way he smile, the way he laugh, the way he make me laugh, the way he eat, burp, ceh, banyak plak cekadak aku nie.. hehe. memang banyak cekadak. tak dapatla... uhuhu..

"Forgive all who have offended you, not for them, but for yourself."

i should forgive me ex for myself. without forgiving him, im stuck in a same lame life. i just need time to forgive, and hopefully forget..