Tuesday, September 22, 2009

im learning you


had a big fight with adem tonight. it was me. i was.. bodoh.

i feel really really good when i talk to him. really good, and sometimes i feel like i dont deserve it. so i pick a fight.

and his right, i run everytime i feel happy. therefore, no one can make me happy. no one.

adem have thousand reasons why we shouldnt be friends anymore. i say words that i shouldnt.. my act seems like i hate him. which i dont, at all.

i do love him, as a friend.

it just that sometimes, i feel so low, i feel so lost, i feel so stupid.. and when i look at him, he still smilling. and i feel like i wanna kill him.

his different. that's all.

and im learning you. im learning adem.

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why am i writting this?? urgh..

4 comments:

pinkrain said...

mungkin patut tenang dan banyak berfikir drpd berkata2.

kan?

nadia alias said...

ya. amat ya.

syazhillmy said...

we always hurt the ones we love the most...

nadia alias said...

true. but it hurt me too.. urgh.