I slept like 4 hours this evening and i woke up with the sound of rain. I'm not sure is it a good or a bad thing.. because syarifah's house dah banjir and i just wish i have someone to cuddle with when i'm alone, cold in the dark of night. on top of all that, i miss ayah so much. It is a long weekend and i am stuck in the house alone. Studying, sleeping and everytime i wake up, still alone. how can i stop this feeling?
Yesterday, Syarifah and i, we had a long talk about life. How life would be perfect to have someone to embrace with every night. someone that don't judge your ke'makcikkan or ke'gilaan. Someone that will always smile and love you the way you are. Well, we came across Victoria Beckham. babi kau. She definitely have it all. georgeos husband, 3 kids, rich, beautiful, slim and a crazy fashionista.. on the other hand.. erk. kami.. baru habis study, buruk, gaji ala ala cukup makan, gemuk dan seriously tak ber'fashion langsung. So.. yes, we feel like a loser. haha. but God never make mistakes. never.
Yesterday, Syarifah and i, we had a long talk about life. How life would be perfect to have someone to embrace with every night. someone that don't judge your ke'makcikkan or ke'gilaan. Someone that will always smile and love you the way you are. Well, we came across Victoria Beckham. babi kau. She definitely have it all. georgeos husband, 3 kids, rich, beautiful, slim and a crazy fashionista.. on the other hand.. erk. kami.. baru habis study, buruk, gaji ala ala cukup makan, gemuk dan seriously tak ber'fashion langsung. So.. yes, we feel like a loser. haha. but God never make mistakes. never.
Looking back, I feel ashamed for being selfish.
for not having a bigger heart.
for the wrong decisions that I've made.
for giving into temptation.
and I miss ayah.
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