i hold the key to my destiny.

As you all know, i am a lifeguard. and for this semester, i have to train 4 others to get their lifeguard license. it is free and it requires commitment. serious commitment.

case: The lifeguard test is on this Saturday and a girl that trained for months, had followed lifeguard activity to Tioman, and had taste lifeguard privilege suddenly quit, last minute. Sumpah menyusahkan orang.

Reason : Boyfriend tak bagi.

My Reaction : Mother fucker.

Serious??? seriously?? seriously bf tak bagi? come one men.. who the hell that bloody bf of yours want to stop your potential to grow? He is just a bf. Somebody that has no actually, halal relationship with you and you want to follow that bloody guy? my god.

You know, this situation is so "17-years-old". I admit, when i was 17, i truly feel that by following what my bf said, will make him and i happy.. but seriously, It's not! well, we broke up and the lesson i got is.. "This is my life, This is me. I am the creator of my future, my life, my goals. So buzz off".

I just don't get people. I am 23 year old and my circle of friends are in that group of age, we all are adult. Adult has the power to think, has the power to take responsibilities.. but you so gatal-gatal-tangan nak bagi kat lelaki-ntah-sape to control the power and rights you have? why? why? why? I just don't get it.

I respect her decision, but don't expect me to understand it.

I think it is clear now, why im still single! haha! but seriously, i don't give a damn. I believe that we all have potential to grow, to be better, to do big things.. and relationship should support your goals, your ideas, your future, never never never as wall to stop you from being better.

"My will shall shape the future. Whether I fail or succeed shall be no man's doing but my own. I am the force; I can clear any obstacle before me or I can be lost in the maze. My choice; my responsibility; win or lose, only I hold the key to my destiny."
Elaine Maxwell